I have to admit this one, like 35, hit me pretty hard. I've been thinking about it since I turned 39. I think that me thinking about it has put me in a state of analyzing myself. Seeing where I've been and where I am. I have to say I'm quite happy with who I am and where I'm going.
First of all, I have my wonderful husband and the two sweetest girls I could ask for. I have wonderful friends. I am enjoying teaching TKD, even though it has been a challenge, to say the least, for me. We are still homeschooling, which honestly takes most of my time between actually doing it and planning it; but I wouldn't change it and I believe John feels the same way.
I have noticed in the last few months a subtle change in me. The kind of change you would only notice if you really knew me. The way I've been able to completely let myself go in a crowd and "shaka shaka" the chocolate coating for ice cream. They way I laugh at loud, fully and completely, no matter where I am. I've also shaken the "I don't care about anything" mood I was in January. And February. And March.
Okay, so I haven't been forty that long. However, I think I've been ME long enough to finally feel comfortable being me. I'm going to enjoy the feeling!
2 comments:
Congrats on 40! And being able to just be you! What a wonderful feeling!
That is something I REALLY need to work on...
Oh Marsha! Ha! Yes, next Wednesday I will be "advanced maternal age". It's all about how you feel, not numbers, right?
The yard is looking great!
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