more than usual it seems.
I've been thinking a lot lately about different kinds of things. One is remembering why we chose to homeschool in the first place. I've been tired lately and sometimes I must remind myself that I will only make these sacrifices for a few years then our girls will set off on a journey of their choosing.
I've been thinking a lot about family. What does "family" mean to me? I don't think of "family" as just those who happen to have the same bloodline. I feel a very strong bond to those who are not bound to us by blood, but have included us as part of their family; and they are certainly a part of ours. I have recently found my "little brother" on Facebook, which has led me more recently to his mom. Who I claim, and have for quite a while, to be my "second" mom. A lady whose poise and quiet nature always amazed me in a classroom full of nitwits! Well, not full but those few do stand out in a room of less than twenty.
Religion has been on my mind a lot lately too. Maybe Jesse's history studies have been playing in my head or life as it is right now. I am, brace yourselves, atheist. I am. I have been for quite a while. It took me a long to realize it. I mean after all I grew up in southern Baptist church getting yelled at the minister every Sunday until I was a teenager. But somewhere along the way, I found myself. Most readers of this will choose to believe I "lost" myself, but that would not be correct. I spent many years being what other people around me thought I should be even though it wasn't me. Now, today, I can see who I am and I have to say I am proud of who I am. I am a strong person, both mentally and physically. I have depth. I can see in people who they are, usually before they say anything. (I am not always right, but mostly.) I am accepting of others who are not like me. I mean really why would I want everyone to be like me...what would we have to discuss. Some of my closest friends are...dare I say...Republican. Deep breath! lol And no I am not a Democrat either. On that matter too I show and Independent thought.
Back to religion. I wish, and believe me this is hard for humans, everyone could be accepting of people's religious views. There are so many views going back so many years and they have changed so much over time. People seem to be in the mind set that what they believe is the only thing to believe. When really it is the only way for that person. That individual could not imagine believing anything else, and can not understand what is wrong with the rest of the world and tries to convert everyone. Something I find ridiculous, annoying and quite frankly disrespectful. Believing that anything you could say in a brief conversation could change a person's religious viewpoint on the spot is arrogant. I beg you to stop trying. If a person is going to change it will only come from within. Here is one I love! I personally get this one a lot. People who constantly tell me they were put in my life to show me the way. Really? Maybe I was put in your life to show you another way! Now, we are even. And by the way, stop that! Religions are delicate and fragile, yet create the strongest emotions possible in people. People protect their religions like they would protect a child, so be gentle.
I have a lot more on my mind, like why does laundry never seem to end even after you finish it. Why is it the neighbor's dogs prefer to poop in your yard? Where do all the pumpkins go after Halloween? Why do sweet things have to be so incredibly bad for you? Why can't lunch fix itself? And of course, where did the extra sock come from in the laundry? My mind seems to have, well, a mind of its own lately. If I have upset you, I apologize that was certainly not my intent. My intent was to clear my mind on my blog. If you have more thoughts, please feel free to clear your mind on your blog.
Note: I wrote this the morning of Nov. 5th. I didn't post it because I wanted to "sit on it" a bit. We had school in the afternoon so the TV was off. I did not hear about Fort Hood until I arrived at TaeKwonDo and Master Mike told me. This morning I listened to GMA as they discussed the Major being harassed because of his religion. I also heard he had been reprimanded for pushing his religion. Religion is not a two-way street...it is each person's own private road.
2 comments:
Dang Marsha! I think you need a vacation, or at least one day to yourself. On another note...I was raised Baptist and basically still am. But over the past 17 years (get the hint) I have come to respect other religions, and even non-religions. It's personal and private choices. They may not be what I was brought up with, but the world changes. With 26 more planets found outside our galaxy, there has to be other life out there. Is it from a higher being? I don't know, but it all came from somewhere (i.e. "which came 1st, the chicken or the egg?"). In my religion classes I took 2 semesters ago, we discussed God. Well I heated some discussions with "where did he come from". I believe, but I am the investigative / logical type. So, I guess what I am saying is...ok you're an atheist, so what's for dinner?(no biggie for me!). We'll see ya'll for the holidays!
The vacation is coming, Sonny. My mind seems to "see" things before my eyes do. I try very hard to let my intincts lead me, because they are usually correct. I took an ethics class my first semester of college and found it fascinating, though I rarely said a word being a freshman in a sea of seniors. One can learn a lot by keeping the mouth closed and eyes and ears open. Thanks for your words.
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