Yep, those are my three worst enemies. Right now I am struggling with a few things. One is something I told John. It wasn't bad or anything, but it was stupid! (And yes John would agree with that one.)
When I lived alone I had no problem keeping a clean house. By nature I am a total neat freak, right down to which directions my pens go in drawers. I'm a bit insane. So, when I got married, then eventually had children, I still wanted everything precisely the way I wanted it. There are only a few draw backs to this...a husband and two children. Don't get me wrong John is improving on clean up after himself and on occasion he will vacuum, clean bathrooms, etc. But on a daily basis it is up to me to keep order in their disorderly lives. (No, John will not like this post.)
We lived in our house in Edgefield for five years. I doesn't seem like that long, but it was. I hate to admit it but it was just before John was told he got the job here that I looked around my house there and said, "Wow, I finally have it." My house was clean, and I mean clean, everyday. It was dusted and vacuumed, neat and orderly on a daily basis and I was at peace. Then we packed everything up and moved. (sigh)
Since, then my house has only been clean for moments. I posted awhile back that I was so happy everything was clean and organized. Now, it is no longer. I think it took a week. I have a desire to be many things. I want to be a good cook but I hate cooking, for me cooking is a chore. I don't want it to be but it is. I want to have time to do fun things with my girls a lot more often, but I don't. Between having school, planning for school, TKD, cooking, laundry, etc. I just can't manage everything. John keeps suggesting a course in Time Management. My problem is there just isn't enough time (I come here to find calm my brain, so I need that on occasion).
All I want is to have a clean, organized home, including the girls' rooms. Laundry to always be caught up and everything to be clean. Not everything cleaned on a daily basis but regularly enough to where it's always clean. I want John to be excited about dinner every night. I want to do a lot of things I've been thinking about for awhile, but I'm just not there yet.
Though perfection eludes me right now, I'm working on it. Every day for the past week there have been little changes around the house. I don't think John has noticed any of them, but I don't expect him to; however, one day he is going to look around and be amazed. I am determined to get to where I want to be, but I am also realistic enough to know I can't do it in a week. It will take time, but everything will be the way I want it (except the girls rooms-their way) I just have to have patience.
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